Today is my birthday. Throughout my life I’ve never celebrated my birthday with a big party or something. Christmas was my birthday party, and I didn’t mind one bit. Friends and family were always busy with Christmas, so I didn’t expect a lot of visitors. Reaching 25, I think it would be nice to look back at the past year(s), and what they brought me.
Throughout my life I’ve experienced a lot of insecurities, and I still have. Though I came to a point where I started to realize the last two years that life gets a lot easier and nicer when you don’t care so much about other people’s opinions about you. It’s me who has to make something of my life, not someone else. Living in a world with billions of people, a lot will have different opinions, but a lot will like what you say as well.
When I was at high-school, I had exactly figured out what I was going to do, how to do that, and how long it would take me. I got into the university I planned, and the course I needed for my future plan. Along the way, while at university, I started to doubt my plan. Once I finished my degree at 22, I had no plan anymore. In the end, the future doesn’t have to be how you plan it. Things change. You change. It’s okay not to be able to know what you’ll do in 1,2 or 5 years.
Money or Happiness
When I decided what I was going to study at 18 yo, it was partly based on job security and income. I heard all around me that that was important and that’s what I thought I needed. I’m not saying I didn’t like what I studied, because I did. After my degree, I went to get work experience. During those years, I realized that there are other things more important than your bank account and being the biggest in your expertise. Working a full-time office job made me realize that I don’t want to spend my life behind a desk working for a boss. The amount of time spend at work compared to time off work shocked me. I’m now realizing that I want to do something that makes me happy, even if the salary is less.
I can’t wait to see what this year will bring me, but first Christmas!